Wow. I finally finished all the dishes. That took like two hours. I'd say I won't ever wait that long to do them again but I know I'd be just lying to myself.
During my run that I dreaded this morning, I reached an epiphany. I sometimes like my runs for this reason. The things that pop into my head. I'm just running along and then BOOM, I get an idea. The idea is this. I am way too harsh on others. I know I criticize butttt.. it comes naturally given what I've been through. I'm not going into detail of exactly "what" I'm talking about but it's pretty life changing. It's enough to where every time someone bitches about how things are soooo complicated in their life's when clearly it's not even close to being horrible, I get offended and pissed off. I feel if some people had to live through what I've lived through they'd never survive. I know that some people might disagree with how I feel but then again they aren't me so they can't feel what I've felt. That being said, I'm really going to try to work on that. It comes with me caring too much. I'm just going to stop. I can't worry about other people as much as I do. It just wears me out. So starting today, I'll just keep my two cents to myself unless asked. This in no way means I'm going to be a mute, just less vocal. My weakness is that I care too much. I get pissed off that people settle for way less than they deserve. I also get upset when they ask for advice, don't use it and then bitch when things don't work out. I'm turning over a new leaf. I don't want to be friends with people who have the following traits: celf-centered, fake, air-headed,or know-it-all's. I want friends who are real that I can be honest with and not feel bad. I expect the same from them. Recently I've thought about some old friendships and I think it's time I breathe some life back into them. So I'm taking best friend applications...... and I promise I'll try not to be too brutally honest because apparently I just keep getting hurt that way.
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